sorry if u dun understand wad im writing. hehehe... :p

well... i shall start...
i dunno why but i feel so lost. really lost. i dunno wad i want. i cant make decisions. im so indecisive. i dunno why. i dunno anytin. really. i dunno. 4 every decision i make i haf 2 tin very carefully. but i am jus scared tt i will make e wrong choice. i dunno. i really dunno. i dun like makin decisions. i noe nt everyone likes to make decisions. its just so tough. i cant decide. 4 my course n 4 my cca. i haf a feeling to change to another course. but i like aerospace. but is kinda so depressing staying there. i dunno. im kinda alone wen im in tt course. n e modules r hard 4 me to understand. i tot of changing courses but if i do tt my family wun be happy wif me. they will keep nagging at me. n obviously scold me. my parents aredy kinda lost trust in me coz of sth happen n oso they r nt happy tt i appealed 4 aerospace instead of jus taking e course tt i gotten in e 1st place, which is biomedical science. but i have grown interest in aerospace. n yet my bro tot tt i wun make it. i tot i will. but nw im nt sure. im nt sure abt anytin. i really dunno. i m really interested in aerospace. really. but i dunno. i kinda feel depressed there. n even if i change wad abt e sch fees?? n will i have 2 stay 4 another yr in poly?? im paying 4 my own sch fees n i onli have jus enuf 2 last me 4 3yrs. i dun mind wrkng but my parents wun allow me 2 wrk while schoolin. hw?? wad can i do?? i dunno. n den abt archery my sis aredy scolded me abt if i wanna buy a bow. coz i have no more money. n if i wanna get e money frm my parents its a lot n nt little. n my sis scolded me saying tt i shld use my own money. coz she is afraid tt aft i buy all e necessary tins i would nt b able 2 commit myself for a long time. n so it would b a waste of my parents money. so nw i dunno. i was confident tt i could last thru 3yrs in poly n prove my bro wrong. but nw im nt sure. really nt sure. i dunno. im hoping tt tins would get better n i would noe which path i wanna take.

well... now im hoping 4 e best. hehehe.. =))))))))))))))) staying happy always. ^_^